me in 40 years
Can i get an amen?
Yes. Hate that shit.
before kanye, there was nas
teotihuacan, 2010… one of the other best days in my life
its incredible how certain murakami novels come to me when im most in need. having read his newest, im profoundly affected by tazaki’s search for closure of a painful past so that he can move on. like is that what i have to do? go backward so i can go forward?i dont know if this means cutting her totally out of my life, or letting her know how deeply she has wounded me so that i can let go and heal. shes never said shes sorry (at least meant it anyway).
the other thing ive been thinking about is how tazaki feels like he has no goal in life. thats the way i feel too. in the broader sense, my goal is to have a book published & be a good writer. but i know that takes time & so, in the meantime, what are my limits? each thing i set out to do, i do. i had a masters degree by 25. i was a university professor by 27. i lived abroad by 28. i had a gf of almost 5 years. i changed careers & was running a business by 30.
31 was the year i crashed & woke up. so now what, tazaki? where to next?
i need to find purpose. stupid moon in virgo. youre making me crazy this month. nothing i do is good enough.
colombia, 2008. one of the best moments in my life.
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